TAN BEE WEI WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!?!

I'M YELLING THE HELL OUT OF MYSELF.

Seriously where have you been to lately? I was viewing my NS friend's FB and I was shocked to see this picture. This is so precious to me, bee wei in baju PT! and also very candid a picture.

Nobody would understand what I am saying right now but this picture totally reminded me of EVERYTHING about us in the camp.

The cutest thing she told me was, the only thing she learnt in national service was how to sleep while standing. haha very true. We can totally be in dream once we closed our eyes when we got stuck in assembly after an exhausted day.

Plus we're not allowed to yawn!!!

She said she adored Paramore's lead vocal's red hair. She is a Christian. She painted her nails black. She is very very very neat.

I wonder where was I when I viewed all my Muar ns friend's pictures. I was in none of those picture when they had those all-muarians pictures taken. Now I remember I was always with BeeWei, whined to her and talked about fake people in camps haha.

What's worse? I lost contact with her!
She is the only one I lost my contact with and she's my best friend in the camp. What kind of so called 'best friend' I am, huh?
The last time I texted her was asking about her SPM result, which was ages ago I know!

She never appears in MSN anymore and I cannot find her facebook either. I'm sad.

Where have you evaporated to, BeeWei? I really miss you.

moody freak

The BFF. I just can't love you more. <3

Button-down shirt from Springfield and jeans from Levi's.
That shirt belonged to my brother but he said it was too tight for him. Wtf he was wearing size US2, of course lah tight! So he gave it to me, it actually was more comfy than the Topshop one when wearing it.

When we were buying tickets for Jennifer's Body, this Indian man at the counter who sold ticket just could not stop flirting with us.

I just realized that the black dress I got from Miss Selfridge was actually see-through. So besides looking at this dress with awe, I don't know what to wear under that. Maybe a slip? Anyone any advice?

When I'm alone, it's the best time for those crazy thought to cross my minds and shout out real loud and they are gonna explode my brain. What the hell is wrong with me? Mum's not at home right now, I miss her. :(

I FEEL SO EMPTY RIGHT NOW.

yay yo

PeiSi came to visit me for 2 days in Subang and had our night here! Thank you girl, love you XOXO

Also, watched Jennifer's Body and 2012! 2012 was like WOW, but it was kinda too long, 3 freaking hours!

Took a lot of photos with PS.

I got a very cute jacket from Jaspal and a LBD dress with sharp shoulder from Miss Selfridge!

I'm gonna upload those pictures soon, I don't care if you want to see those or not!

Haha!

AS is over! i was so happy that I fell!

Today I sat for my last exam paper, so it also means that AS is over! So A2 is coming soon! REAL SOON! well it will be on next year, but I can already imagine how hard it will be.

Anyway, before sitting for exam, as everyone knows, we must SWITCH OFF our handphones and put it in our bags. So today, for the first time, I forgot to do that!

So I was in the exam classroom, I was horrified when I remembered that I forgot to switch off the damn phone. so I was fidgeting and hesitating if I should go to in front and tell the invigilator that I forgot to switch off my phone and ask for the permission to do that.

I hesitated for quite a long time, like 5 minutes, starred at the clock hesitating should I go switch it off, even if I wanted, I have to do it fast before exam time began.

Because I was thinking, nobody would call me at this time anyway. Nobody ever calls me when I was sitting for exam. Buy lottery also won't that heng got called when my phone wasn't switched off. and If I wasn't mistaken, I'd already set it in silent mode. So even if some people really call me, it just vibrated lo, won't make any noise also.

Also I didn't want to look like a complete idiot who sat the exam for the FIRST TIME and did not know the rules of exam at all. It was my last paper, hello!

But I wasn't VERY sure about that. I wasn't sure if I put it in silent mode.

So I made the decision. I must go to switch the phone off!! if not, something bad could happen!!

So when invigilator was delivering the exam questions and when she came to me, I told her I forgot to switch off the phone. So I ran to in front and searched my bag and switched it off!

Guess what, it wasn't in silent mode!!!! what the heck?

then I ran back to my seat, and you know what's coming next? I fell down!

blame that shoes la! and the floor also so slippery!

But I didn't fall down like, the whole body touched the floor. I got my hands pressed on the floor and supported my body la. But still didn't make it any less stupid and funny. while falling I, naturally, blurted out 'Oh My God'. Luckily It wasn't 'What The Fuck'.

I was so embarrassed that I wanted to dig a hole and hide myself!

After exam, when I switched on my phone, I got 3 missed calls from my mother!!!

Seriously I should go buy lottery, maybe the chances of striking it is bigger than that of getting calls when my phone wasn't switched off.

I kinda hurt my knee, though. But it was fine. Hurting my knee was better than not switching off the phone and let it rang for 3 times endlessly and disturbed others!

I didn't even dare to imagine that. Invigilator would probably grab my bag and asked ''who the fuck does this bag belong to?'' then everyone looks at me and I looked at somebody else pretending like 'WHO?! WHO?! ME?' Then the invigilator says : GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!!!'

Luckily I made a right decision, although i never expected I have to trip and fall to compensate my carelessness. -.-

But think at the bright side, AS is over! (-: Yoohoo!

i cannot tahan anymore

I have a friend in my msn, to be exact he is a friend of my friend. I've only seen him once, and I talked to him. Because he's the same batch as my other friends from SAB (all graduated), so I asked him about a friend of mine, and see if he knew her or what. but then he started criticizing the girl, and her pictures on facebook with ugly words. and i am very sure that he barely knew the girl i mentioned.

so i was like, ''well.'' and sipped my drinks without continueing the conversation with him.
but in my head i said ''well hello she's my friend!!!''

After that he added my facebook and MSN (he searched himself I don't know how.)

BUT THAT"S FINE!

Because I still can be very patient if he only bugs me once or twice. BUT NO, he bugs me whenever I showed I was onlining on MSN.

But still, I replied him EVERYTIME he wanted to ''chit-chat'' with me. Because I think, hmm..why not be a friend, it won't harm anyone and he might turn out to be a great friend!

I don't want to be so mean to him, plus he is a friend of my friend. I should treat him with great manners so that it wouldn't be awkward for my friend too.

But after some time, I really cannot stand him anymore. Because his english suckssss like i dunno-what.

i really cannot tahan his lousy command of BASIC ENGLISH!!BASIC ENGLISH!!

Hold on, not that i'm saying my english is good ok!! but at least i know what basic english is.

Half the time I don't know what he was talking about, because they all doesn't make sense!!
I'm pretty sure he doesn't understand what I was talking about, either. That's why funny things always happen.

Like, when I asked him a question, instead of answering my question, he answered ''OIC''.

what the heck?!

Today, around 12.45 pm, I onlined on MSN, and as usual his msn window popped out.

''evening''. he said.

''good afternoon.''I replied.

''wat? still not until 1pm.''

''er..after 12 is afternoon. and evening is bang wan. unless you think it is bang wan now.''

''OIC''.

I freaking hate the OIC thing. because I don't think he really understands. and oh, so he means it can't be afternoon after 1 but it can be evening already la?!

and before that, there was one ridiculously funny thing that happened to him, all because of his english wasn't...that good.

so you see, he always put a ''celebrity'' picture as his displayed picture. so one day,

I asked ''so you really like XX, huh?'' (see! im nice right! even ask him some wu liao questions just to make him feel i don't hate him!)

you know what he replied?

''no lah i not handsome de where got like him?''

I almost fell off my chair! if you still don't understand, he thought i said he looks like XX!!! LMAO

so i replied ''no no i mean u suka him right? i don't mean that you look like him.''

but then i cannot control myself and said
''u think i said you look like him? hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!''

he replied ''no ah i know.''

WTF!! if he knew then what kind of funny answer he just gave?!

I always tell him he can type mandarin because i don't understand his english, and also i can understand mandarin. I said it in a very nice tone la so that won't hurt his feelings.

The reason I didn't want to reply him in mandarin was because, I didn't want him to think that he can have shit loads of conversations with me already. I know he will, because he always asked lots of questions about me, and I answered ALL!

Also I don't know why sometimes he can be really emo out of no reasons. Emo guys really turn me off. If i reply him in mandarin, hoho he surely will ask much more questions that he already did.

It's still better to type english and make him confused than he asks me tonnes of questions that i hate to answer.

and can he tell the difference between 'LOL' and the mandarin 'lo' already!!!?

i'm too nice to him that i hate myself for being phony! at first it was kinda fun to watch him typing some alien language, but then it turned to be some nightmares to have conversation with him! everytime he answers weird answer I am like ''walao can someone stab me in the heart i really cannot do this anymore!''

since i buey tahan him so much, I don't know what to do with him. should I make myself more miserable but still reply his MSN, or delete him from my contacts and keep him from bugging me?

i hate my skin.

seriously i hate my skin. I just cannot seem to find a skincare product that is suitable for me skin because they are tooooo sensitive.

Age of 18 and still searching for skincare product that suits me the best. -_-

Basically I don't have oily skin but I do have acne-prone sensitive skin. I don't hope to have a flawless skin la, I mean to have a flawless skin is like totally impossible for me, I don't dream BIG. But at least give me a pimples-free skin la !

I find that it's a difficult task to have a total pimples-free forehead. It's not impossible, but after having 2 days of smooth forehead pimples come again. So the 1st thing I do every morning after wearing my contact lenses, I'll look at the mirror to check if there is any new break-out. Most of the time, I'll be like 'Fuck, here it comes again..'

Now I'm using Clinique Anti Blemish but still doesn't work for my skin. The first 2 weeks of using that, my forehead got 2 really really big blemishes on the forehead. Maybe this imply that my skin is adapting to new product, but I thought by using that these problems should not be happening?! Because I thought well-known brand can guarantee whatever they claimed they can do?

Oh I know, they do guarantee. It just doesn't work for me but it does improve others' skin problem.

WHY?

Again, because I have a sensitive skin!

I'm not saying that Clinique sucks lah. It only sucks for me because I'm not suitable to use this. Well it still sucks. and the clarifying lotion(toner), it claims to treat blemishes but it is really a strong solution and every time I swap the cotton on my face it's incredibly painful. so i don't know if it is treating blemishes or irritating blemishes more.

When I say I have pimples, I mean like this:

the pimple is so freaking obvious lah!!!!!
oh and i know i have super round face/jaw line.

I think I'm just going to have to switch the skincare product I'm using now.

AH HA HA but the question is, switch to what?! I don't want to buy things that I'll regret later because I'll find out that it isn't effective for my skin but still forced to use until it is finished.

I have been recommended products selling by Beauty Salon but I don't know how the fuck they are so expensive, and they are brands that I've never heard. So.. I don't know lah............ :(

what do u guys think? hmm?

let's talk about people today.

I had a friend. She despises Friendster a lot. She thinks that people who use Friendster are disgusting, so are those who have blog.

Because in her opinion, we should not publicly talk about our daily life and let other people to know, or even open the chances for others to criticize us. It is completely wrong to not protect our privacy, not to mention publisize the details of our lives. All these things are despicable and no one should ever let others to step in our life.

She judged me when she knew I had a Friendster account. She made me felt so bad.

But years later, she opened a facebook account. Yes I know she thinks that Facebook and Friendster are different. Maybe that's because more western people use facebook but Friendster used by mostly Asians. Or maybe she thinks that those ahbeng ahseng ali alu won't use Facebook.

But in fact, they are the SAME.

It's the same. You will have to approve friends, so that they can view your Facebook. This goes the same to Friendster isn't it? My Friendster account is locked private by the way.

So she defends that she only approve real friends, not some strangers that don't even know her. This way only people she knows can view her Facebook. But I can totally do this in Friendster either! I can choose to approve people I know and reject people I don't know!

Plus, she also publisized her detail in Facebook, like her email address, where she lives and so on.

All I want to say is, this all against her words that she made before. No matter how she defends that FB and FS are different and how FB is under protected bla, she is just going back to what she said before. Worse, she has her own blog too, but I don't feel like talking about this because it's all the same what I am saying now.

She should judge herself like how she judged me years before.

I don't discriminate FS no matter how out-dated it is.
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This person I'm going to talk about isn't my friend. She is just a people I've seen before. Well I don't like her and what she writes in her blog very very much. Everytime it burns my nerves when I read her blog.

She keeps talking about how prettyyyy and smartttt she is in her blog! Well I admit that she really is a smartass, very clever, but pretty? hmm..I don't think so.

She is intelligent, I don't know if she's a nice person. But that could make her almost perfect, only if she stops bragging about herself!

Even if you are really pretty, sometimes it is crucial to let others to tell you about that, instead of YOU yourself go yapping around and tell people you are so pretty!! This is because when you overdo it, people cannot see the beauty in you anymore! The beauty of humble!

Yes that is exactly what she is lacking of. Beauty of humble.

Even if you are a straight-A's student but your lousy attitude is not getting you anywhere further.
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I just watch HP6 yesterday, I know I'm so late. But actually I think the movie was OK, not too bad. The only down side is it doesn't stick to the book, but making the tebal tebal book into a 2 hours movie is no easy shit, so this is already satisfying for me. But I don't like they made Ginny to be so slutty in the movie.

And that's all for today.